Recently

Recently, it very shocks things occurred to me. So I could not eat anything for a week, and I don't energy to do anything. Sometimes, my friends worry about me and they lent me some places, but  I can't forget that thing. In my home, I usually stay in my bed and cry all the time thinking about it. If I slept, I saw a dream about it and I was very wet because of my sweat. So I started to write the my journey everyday. I always write it before I sleep. I write my real thinking in my heart and cry. I am very afraid to lose my most important treasure. I know that I need to do a lot, but I can't. Please listen to my heart and give a correct answer to me. But I also know that the answer is only in my boyfriend's heart.